I hate myself & my life .
I wish i can end it .
Life's really miserable nowadays .
Please end my life D;
I dun want continue anymore .
Kaiying , i know you hate me .
I also hate myself for letting you go .
Not treasuring you when i can .
Now its all too late , you now attached .
You got a new boyfriend that you love while i just have to wait .
Maybe i wait wait wait also wont happen .
I feel like telling you my heart words .
But everytime when i see you , i could'nt say anything .
I seriously hate myself .
Seeing you happier than last time , i'm happy for you .
But in my heart , i'm sad D;
You may think that all this is BULLSHIT .
But its is not anymore .
I learn my mistakes , if time can rewind .
I will still be with you , but doing things to cherish and treasure you .
You can live without me , but i cant .
You got a family that always support you but i dun have .
You are like my family , my one and only love .
I cant find another girl like you who always care and concern about me .
I regretted doing alot of things but i cant change it now .
I just hope that i can change my future .
You can say that i'm stupid or i talking BULLSHIT .
But seriously , i'm not .
My love for you have never change , i will keep waiting for the day when i can call you Wifey again D;
Now i have no friends , no family and no love .
I'm not the last time ZHANGXIAOQIANG .
Hais ...
Kaiying i know you got read my blog .
I really want to tell you that i really still love you lots .
I know you dun have any feelings anymore .
Last long with your current boyfriend ba .
Happy for you but heartbroken for me .
I'm not trying to ask people to pity me .
These are words from my heart .
I will wait because i still love you , i dun want make the wrong mistake again .
Wait for months , years ?
I will wait and i wont have another relationship again .
That all i can say , words from my heart
Kaiying i love you but i know you already given up on me .
I will wait even if it is years to wait .
I will show everyone that i not BULLSHITING .
ILOVEYOU .
Screw my life .
Fucked my life .
Not existing is a better choice .